I am confused
Posted: Tue Nov 15, 2011 12:18 am
Love and Light To All,
Its 5.30 am now and just a while back around 4.30 I had experienced a strange feeling . I could sense an energy similar to attunement around me but it was heavy and there was chill i could feel the energy passing and there was pain and burning in my fingers palms and soles of the feet. The energy reached my heart and it was painful and cold .Behind my closed eyes I could see white smoke covering the vision and then there was this violet spot that formed which was sucking the white light into it and then it was only violet light. I have imagined reiki entering my crown and dispelling all the coldness around me but it still exists . I am confused whether it is positive energy or any negative entity. Suddenly my 3 year old daughter sleeping around me started crying saying dont touch me i want a cake, I want chocolate now. she woke up and incidentally my father in law who was awake took her out for a walk.
She just came back and she is fine now.
Actually we have bought a house and it is under construction.I visited the site to see its progress today. This house is on the first floor and in front of the house there is a huge cemetery. How much ever I try and think positive I am not able to avoid disturbing thoughts to come to my mind.I am thinking that as my mind was focused on the disturbing thoughts am i attracting them to me.
I want my family to be safe. I do not want my kids to be effected by anything. What can I do? I am really afraid of all this. I love the house that I am constructing lot of love energy and money have gone into it. How can I block or change my negativity towards the cemetery , I tried to tell myself that it is a divine place where lord shiva exists and its a resting place and liberation place for many souls.
I really do not know if I am, making sense . I am just writing down every thought that's coming into my mind. I am spooked if that the correct word. The burning is still there in my veins though my heart is a warm but there is a little pain there as well.
What is all this I am feeling? What ever is the feeling I do not like it and ?I do not want to experience it again.
Regards,
Priya
Its 5.30 am now and just a while back around 4.30 I had experienced a strange feeling . I could sense an energy similar to attunement around me but it was heavy and there was chill i could feel the energy passing and there was pain and burning in my fingers palms and soles of the feet. The energy reached my heart and it was painful and cold .Behind my closed eyes I could see white smoke covering the vision and then there was this violet spot that formed which was sucking the white light into it and then it was only violet light. I have imagined reiki entering my crown and dispelling all the coldness around me but it still exists . I am confused whether it is positive energy or any negative entity. Suddenly my 3 year old daughter sleeping around me started crying saying dont touch me i want a cake, I want chocolate now. she woke up and incidentally my father in law who was awake took her out for a walk.
She just came back and she is fine now.
Actually we have bought a house and it is under construction.I visited the site to see its progress today. This house is on the first floor and in front of the house there is a huge cemetery. How much ever I try and think positive I am not able to avoid disturbing thoughts to come to my mind.I am thinking that as my mind was focused on the disturbing thoughts am i attracting them to me.
I want my family to be safe. I do not want my kids to be effected by anything. What can I do? I am really afraid of all this. I love the house that I am constructing lot of love energy and money have gone into it. How can I block or change my negativity towards the cemetery , I tried to tell myself that it is a divine place where lord shiva exists and its a resting place and liberation place for many souls.
I really do not know if I am, making sense . I am just writing down every thought that's coming into my mind. I am spooked if that the correct word. The burning is still there in my veins though my heart is a warm but there is a little pain there as well.
What is all this I am feeling? What ever is the feeling I do not like it and ?I do not want to experience it again.
Regards,
Priya